birthday blues

So today is my 25th birthday... so far, kind of a let down. AJ went on a road job monday night at 10, so we weren't sure when he'd be home, so that was lame. Then Jayden didn't sleep much. And I just felt super lonely. A bunch of people have written me on facebook, which should make me feel better, but it's not the same.

While I was in the shower I thought things were taking a turn for the better because AJ was on his way home. He came home with flowers and cake, hung out for about 45 minutes, and has been sleeping since. I don't want to make him feel bad, but I really hoped that the BN would just take a day off today. He's scheduled to go back out tonight around 11, which sucks because he'll be gone until Friday night, which means he probably won't get to go out downtown (something I have been looking forward to since January).

I just wish I was in California right now, sad part is that I could have been. I wish I was around my friends in Vista, or even better, I wish Lindsey was here. She has a special way of making everything fun... She was supposed to come out tomorrow for the weekend, but her work wouldn't let her off, so now she's not.

I feel like my birthday is the only day left that is supposed to be about me only, all other holidays are now for Jayden, which is fine, but I was just hoping for a better day. Instead I went to return some things for AJ, went to Target to get medicine for Jayden, and ate Wendy's for lunch. =[

Hopefully when Alyssa comes over at 3:00 my day will start to turn around.

Even worse, forcasts said it was supposed to be 70+ out today, and we're barely pushing 50.

I'm trying to think of today as just another day, nothing special, but it's hard, for some reason I was really looking forward to this birthday.