Why Your Waiter Hates You pt. 3

ahahha so true.

Unexpected me-time

So the babysitter is here, watching Jayden while I do homework. I really only needed her to come over so I could do one short project that is due on Monday, but I can't do it any other time because I leave for CA on Saturday, and she is going to Virgina tomorrow. The project ended up taking me all of 30 minutes to finish, but I can't find it in me to send her home. Haha. I like having two hours just to myself, even if it means writing about something as mundane as what a mullein plant is, and it's purposes. So alas, I sit, holed up in the bedroom, with my coke, some chips, my laptop, and my peace of mind knowing that if Jayden cries, I don't have to be the one to run and take care of him. Ahhh.

Yesterday was great. I just have to throw that out there. On Tuesday it was AJ's birthday, and he didn't want to do anything special. We went to Walmart, then to Game Stop so he could trade in some games. He didn't want anything special for dinner, so we just came home. I decided to let him play his new video game the whole night while I took care of Jayden. Usually he'll play for an hour before I get too frustrated that he's *right* there, and I can't "play" with him, so he stops, but I figured that it was his bday, I'll let him play as long as he wants.
Well, he must've been really thankful for that because yesterday he got off work around 3, and instead of going straight to get his hair cut, he knew Jayden was being fussy, so he came and picked us up (Jayden gets instantly happy when he see's AJ, and is in a new place). We came home, I cooked dinner while AJ watching Jayden, and then AJ told me to go tanning and "take your time." Huh?? Usually when I leave he wants me to rush home! Since he was being nice, I decided to do the short bed, came home, and AJ was giving Jayden a bath. Without me asking him to! He had made all the bottles, cleaned up the apartment, and was giving him a bath. I felt SO spoiled I didn't know what to do. So I offered to feed Jayden and put him to bed. If only every night was like that. haha.

birthday blues

So today is my 25th birthday... so far, kind of a let down. AJ went on a road job monday night at 10, so we weren't sure when he'd be home, so that was lame. Then Jayden didn't sleep much. And I just felt super lonely. A bunch of people have written me on facebook, which should make me feel better, but it's not the same.

While I was in the shower I thought things were taking a turn for the better because AJ was on his way home. He came home with flowers and cake, hung out for about 45 minutes, and has been sleeping since. I don't want to make him feel bad, but I really hoped that the BN would just take a day off today. He's scheduled to go back out tonight around 11, which sucks because he'll be gone until Friday night, which means he probably won't get to go out downtown (something I have been looking forward to since January).

I just wish I was in California right now, sad part is that I could have been. I wish I was around my friends in Vista, or even better, I wish Lindsey was here. She has a special way of making everything fun... She was supposed to come out tomorrow for the weekend, but her work wouldn't let her off, so now she's not.

I feel like my birthday is the only day left that is supposed to be about me only, all other holidays are now for Jayden, which is fine, but I was just hoping for a better day. Instead I went to return some things for AJ, went to Target to get medicine for Jayden, and ate Wendy's for lunch. =[

Hopefully when Alyssa comes over at 3:00 my day will start to turn around.

Even worse, forcasts said it was supposed to be 70+ out today, and we're barely pushing 50.

I'm trying to think of today as just another day, nothing special, but it's hard, for some reason I was really looking forward to this birthday.

♥

Got myself a pair of Lucky Brand Jeans (my first), and saw this and thought it was cute. =]

My Life In 30 Days- Day 30

Day 30- A picture of someone you miss. I miss my girls from CA, especially Jessica and Emily. They have a special way of making me feel at home, even when they came to Denver. I'm super excited to see them in the next couple of months.

My Life In 30 Days- Day 29

Day 29- A picture that makes you smile.
I love the beach, and I love knowing that when I go back to California it's there waiting for me. Makes me warm and tingly all over. =]

My Life In 30 Days- Day 28

Day 28- Something you're scared of.
This picture makes me cringe. I HATEEEE having my blood drawn/getting an IV. Getting a regular shot, like a flu shot, doesn't really bother me, but having someone stick a needle in me, and draw something out is just disgusting to me. It has gotten to the point where, if I'm thinking about it, you CANNOT touch the inside of my elbow, I will FREAK out. If I'm not thinking about it it might be ok, but usually the inside of my elbow, and the backs of my knees are HUGE no no's.
Being pregnant was def a challenge with the monthly blood tests, and the IV for 3 days. =[

My Life In 30 Days- Day 27

Day 27- A picture of yourself with a family member.
This picture is of me and my brother at my grandparents 50th anniversary party. I think it was probably 8 years ago or so...

My Life In 30 Days- Day 26

Day 26- Something that means a lot to you.
My relationship with AJ means a lot to me. He's very understanding and works hard to support me and Jayden. We vibe together extremely well.

My Life In 30 Days- Day 25

Day 25- A picture of your day.
Today is our one-year anniversary in Colorado, so we "accidentally" went exploring. We went out with the intention of going to look at a new car for me, but found the dealership was closed, so we ended up just driving around. We went to Golden, and took some pretty pictures there, but I was a bit upset that I didn't have my Rebel with me (I only thought we were going car shopping!) Then on the way back from Golden, we ended up passing by Columbine High School and I basically begged AJ to stop so I could walk around and take pictures. It was so strange knowing what happend there 11 years ago. We weren't able to find the memorial, but I took some pretty cool pictures anyways. =] Makes me want to buy a book about the massacre and read it.

B-Hobo

YAY! AJ just got me my Kelly Moore B-Hobo bag! Such a great surprise! Super excited!

After taking my camera to the park with Jayden the other day I understand just how important a good camera bag is! The whole time I was SO nervous that one of my lenses was going to fall out of the bag, and that would be no buneo!

My Life In 30 Days- Day 24

Day 24- A picture of something you wish you could change.
I wish I could change the relatioship I have with AJ's mom and sister. It seems like I can never do anything right with either of them, no matter my efforts. I don't know why neither of them like me, but I know it makes AJ's life so much harder. I've tried quite a few times, but it still seems like a close relationship with them is just not in the cards.

February Reflections

I know it's the 4th, but honestly, I forgot. =]

1. Favorite song/band of the month: Taylor Swift
2. Favorite 365 picture of the month: Day 38.
3. Best memory from month: Getting my camera and laptop... and plane tickets to california.
4. Biggest milestone for Jayden: standing with only "balance support"
5. Biggest accomplishment of the month: Getting my camera and laptop
6. Goal for next month: Take more photos/keep up on p90x
7. Favorite piece of clothing: A&F jeans
8. Which (if any) other resolutions did you accomplish?: started P90x

My Life In 30 Days- Day 23

Day 23- A picture of your favorite book.
I planned to make this picture more interesting, but this book is in the garage, and that's just too much work for a Friday morning. =]

This book is SO inspirational and amazingly interesting. It's about a woman who is stuck in pologamy against her will. Her husband has 5 other wives and over 40 children. She does not want that lifestyle and plans to escape, but will only do so with all 8 of her children. The things she goes through are truly amazing. I love books like this.

My Life In 30 Days- Day 22

Day 22- A picture of something you wish you were better at.
I wish I was better at my DSLR. I know my way around my point and shoot just fine (like most), but my DSLR is pretty complicated. I'm working on getting better tho, and am determined to master it by the end of this year.

My Life In 30 Days- Day 21

Day 21- A picture of something you wish you could forget.
I chose my debt. I don't so much wish that I could "forget" it, but I wish it didn't exist. I'm not in too deep, but it's just always kind of looming over me.

Wedding!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH! So I was just asked to photograph a wedding! One of AJ's best friend's sister is getting married in June and wants me to take her photos! I am SOO excited! I have a LOT of practice/learning to do!

I'm soo stoked! I'm going to sign up for a wedding workshop asap!

Consider this the beginning of my new career!

My wish list

So I've got a pretty intense wishlist these days.

#1 Kelly Moore B-Hobo bag in heather grey. This camera bag has AWESOME reviews, and is just super cute!

It will hold my camera, two lenses, extra batteries, and a bunch of other nicknacks. Plus it has a longer shoulder strap so you can wear it messanger style.

#2 I found this new software online that gives you a little "taste" of it, and shows you some tutorials on how to use it. It's called "Totally Rad." It's a division of photoshop but more user friendly.




I can't decide which one I want to get first. Part of me thinks the software would be more beneficial, but I don't even have a camera bag so that may be a better pick. Either way, it has inspired me to pick up extra shifts whenever possible. The bag is $160, and the software is $140. Gotta start saving my pennies!

March Maddness!

I'm super excited about this month.

On the 17th my bestest friend will be here to help celebrate mine and AJ's birthday! She inspires me to go out and explore Colorado, so I know when she comes we'll go hiking, to the park, etc. Lotsa photo opportuinites. And she's totally down for a little shoot. =]
Then, the very next weekend I'll be going to California for the first time in over a year. Super exciting. My family and some friends will get to meet Jayden, and I'll finally get my Togo's/Round Table Pizza fix! haha. Not to mention a bunch of photo opportunities there also!

I'm so excited! It's MARCH!!!

My Life In 30 Days- Day 20

Day 20- A place where you would love to travel.
I'd love to go to Jamaica. I really want to so somewhere that has the clear as day water, gorgeous beaches, and not TOO hot. Maybe one day. =]