Shots shots shots

Today has been a fairly stressful day.

Jayden had his 2 month check-up today, which went fine, until he got his shots. He took it like a champ, cried a little, and then the second I picked him up he was fine.
I went out to lunch with a friend, and did a little shopping, then when I got home and took him out of his carseat he would not stop crying. He wouldn't eat, didn't want to bounce, nothing... then AJ looked at his leg and noticed it was all red and puffy. He had gotten his tetnus shot (which apparently hurts like a b****) and AJ said that's probably why he was so fussy. I felt (and still feel) so bad for him.

We managed to talk to the doctor, and she said to just give him some baby tylenol and see if it goes down from that. Hopefully it does.

I've never been this scared to hold him. I don't want to hurt him by touching his leg or anything. I know he probably wants to be cuddled so he knows I'm there for him, but I'm nervous. Goodness it sucks. I do not know what I would have done if AJ weren't home. I would have been freaking out to the nth degree. I'm so glad he was here.

It just shows me how much I need him, and how hard it's going to be if he's working all the time, but I totally understand why he does it.. he does it so Jayden can have a good life, and I love him for that. =]

I have to figure out what to do about going back to work soon. Hopefully they'll give me a couple more weeks before I have to start, otherwise I'm going to lose a job I love. I honestly don't know how I'm going to jugle school, Jayden, the house, and work (even if it is just once a week). It will definitely be a struggle, but hopefully all worth it in the end. It sure will take my mind off of other things in my life.

Alrighty, the bed is calling my name since Jayden & AJ are both asleep.